From the Heart

Happy Sunday and HAPPY MAY to all! What wonderful weather it has been in Paris this weekend. Back home (Kansas) I have heard it’s reached 100 today, wow! Here it has only been 60 but in honor of the hotness back home I decided to go tanning today. I am now burnt, shocker, but I wanted to avoid the massive burn I usually get the first part of summer so I am progressively tanning up until I come home so then hopefully the shock isn’t that bad πŸ˜‰

This weather gets me all excited for summer and the lake, riding my motorcycle, and even breaking out the dresses, sometimes that is. Plus this weather means I am that much closer to being… HOME! Only 11 days to go (not counting today) and I just cannot believe that. It will be weird leaving Paris and all of the people I have met and friends I have made but I am happy to get back to my family and excited to hang with some of my friends again. When I hear people say “take advantage of being young because life just flashes by you” I believe it. Some days it feels like they last forever but then there are weeks that go by and when you look back you feel as if you floated through them all at once. Life is to be lived by the moment, I try to never wish the days away although it may be hard when you are looking forward to something so much. When in reality it just makes time go by even slower, in my case that is πŸ˜‰

Thankful for the experiences, lessons learned, and friends made while having ceased this opportunity. Three years ago I would have never pictured myself doing something like this, having the strength to leave everything I knew and everything that made me comfortable to travel 4700 miles away from what I call home. It’s funny how things can change so much throughout the years. Often times this includes letting go of friendships, old habits, and even loved ones who are no longer needed on the path of your highest true self. Truth be told the only “one” we ever really need is one’s self.

Though the days and years may pass by I am trying to make each one worth remembering. I always thought the only things I would ever truly regret in life were the chances I did not take and now I realize it even includes the relationships I was too afraid to have. I am good alone, actually I prefer a lot of things alone but we can only learn so much from aloneness. Most of my life I was afraid of letting people get close to me, afraid I would get hurt or even worse get left. Funny thing is I usually pushed people away so that never could happen, either way I wound up hurt but mostly because I did not know my worth. I have had a lot of time to reflect inward here in Paris, I think that is the main “calling” I got in order to come here. What better way to be alone then to be 4700 miles from loved ones?! I certainly had no choice in the matter here right? Well after a few months of that I have found a few pieces of myself. I am more than aware I will spend the rest of my life finding myself but this is a start πŸ™‚

Thank you to those who have supported me on this venture and for the ones who stuck by me no matter how far away I may be. I am blessed beyond belief and will continue the venture within no matter where I go in life! I appreciate you πŸ™‚

Off to finish up some of my classes this week, Finals the following week and then HOME!!

Love to you all

2014 motto
This was my motto for the year πŸ™‚


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