A Look From Within

Hey everyone! Currently I am writing from my hotel near the London Heathrow airport, I arrive back to the states TOMORROW. Almost 3 weeks have passed of my time here in Europe and it is bittersweet to be leaving such a beautiful country, a wonderful host family and so many possibilities. BUT for now my venture is back home. I have made the decision to return home early for a number of reasons. As I know many of you are curious I will endeavor to put some of the questions at ease.

 

The past week or so I have struggled with numerous feelings and emotions; sadness, exhaustion, happiness, faith, thankfulness, and even fear. This trip has sure been an eye opener! Almost 2 months ago I graduated college, seems like just yesterday, what a beautiful time (even with all of the rain we had that day). Nearly 3 weeks ago I finally finished 7 credits of classes I had left to take when I walked across that stage. Given that I finished class 2 days before I came to Europe on a 6-8 week venture, life is just now catching up with me. What. A. Ride. The past couple of weeks in Genova, Italy have been amazing. My family is wonderful, Italy is beautiful and life is good. Something was missing though and I’m not talking about being homesick, this is something I could feel from within. Ah yes, exhaustion. Here I am in Europe babysitting 10 hour days and traveling on the weekends. YES this is very glamorous in many ways but at this time in my life it was just too much, I was falling apart.

Since the decision I made last Spring to move my graduation date up by a whole semester I had been swamped with classes, pre-sessions, summer sessions and weekend workshops. Good thing I work well under pressure 😉 BUT as I arrived to Europe in my first few days it hit me, I need a break! Here I am about to start a possible 2 month venture but I can’t even wrap my mind, body and soul around it. So after surrendering to all of the emotions I was having about cutting my time here short, I made the choice to honor myself and come home. For the first day or two I was so worried about letting my host family down, after months of Skype calls how could I explain to them why I wanted to go home?! The conversation with my host mom was great, she completely understood and honored my wishes. In the following days I helped find a replacement for the 2-3 weeks I would be missing in order to help my host family out. I found a wonderful girl from Canada and she showed up Monday ready to rock and roll! What a relief, she is awesome and my prayers were definitely answered. Leaving was harder than I imagined. Crazy to think in such little time I became a part of an amazing family. I will forever cherish my time with them!

Once I got past the worrying I noticed something else coming up. I was afraid of what people would think. I had been talking about this adventure for months in anticipation of a nice little treat after graduation. Many friends and family members expressed their interest in following along with me while I set out on many adventures. In many forms I felt a responsibility to help show others the world. Ultimately, I realized the worry about what people thought of me was nowhere near the fear of what I might think of myself. Was I giving up? Was I letting myself down?

In the past few days I have had a revelation. All of the previous became irrelevant. The only responsibility I had given up on was the one I owed to myself. With so many changes I was finding it hard to keep up and in turn I was losing aspects of myself. This made for one very confused Kelsey. After a couple of days struggling through the emotions I am once again back on track to taking care of myself. I have currently had quite the lovely day relaxing at my hotel, treating myself to yummy meals and then a movie date to Magic Mike! That movie sure was XXL if you know what I mean 🙂 For those of you who don’t the movie is called Magic Mike XXL lol, you’re welcome. I have a full weekend ahead! Tomorrow I get to see my mom, my kitties and a few of my friends. This weekend I have a Bachelorette Party for a dear friend of mine and then see my dad on Sunday. Somewhere in between this calls for a bunch of relaxation. I am happy to say I will be spending a couple weeks on a “stay-cation” or at least for the most part!

 

Now the big question, What’s next?

 

Well, stay tuned….

Kels

Italian Life

Hey all!! It’s been over a week since my last update but I have been a busy bee here in Italy. I arrived about 2 weeks ago and I just boarded a train to Pisa, about a 2 hour journey from Genova, so I have plenty of time to get everyone up to speed!

 

Most of my days are consumed with my cute kid, Filippo. We spend almost everyday together, other than my half days which fall on Monday or Wednesday and every Friday! A typical day in the life of Kelsey and Filippo consists of sleeping in until around 10 am, surprisingly enough Filippo usually sleeps longer than me! We then get breakfast ready, lately Filo (Filippo) has fallen in love with my scrambled eggs I make, personally they are nothing special but he just loves them. This morning for instance he bats his eyelashes at me and in his very Italian accent says “Can I please have eggs, the ones you sometimes make for me”. I am honored to say even in Italy my cooking is enjoyed, not that I do it often of course. The rest of our mornings are spent doing English homework, drawing or writing, and watching a movie/TV for a little bit. This usually takes us up until the time my host mom comes home and prepares lunch for all of us. We eat a lot of tomatoes, mozzarella, pasta and veggies! Other than when we go out altogether we typically eat at home, which is fine by me the meals are all wonderful! After lunch she takes Filo and I to the beach resort where we then relax, swim and play until the end of the day when we are picked up. The first day or two at the resort I got pretty burnt, shocker! I will tell you more about Italy and the beach resort later in the post. During the evenings I usually shower, lounge around, eat dinner with my host family and then enjoy my free time. I haven’t spent many evenings going around town because the town is actually about the size of Wichita, my hometown, and of course not driving makes it very difficult to get around or at least more time consuming. So I usually spend the weekends going around to different places and cities!

 

So far this has been a wonderful experience! A very busy one, but that’s pretty typical in Europe. I truly got blessed with a wonderful host family here, we have a great connection. The mom, Alessandra, speaks English very well and the dad, Tullio understands English a lot but is a little more uncomfortable speaking which I completely understand. My Italian consists of ciao and more ciao, that’s about it! Filippo understands English very well, he is sometimes just shy talking in English because he is afraid of messing up. I think they have thoroughly enjoyed working on improving their English, which is one of the main reasons for wanting an au pair. I really did get lucky, they are a very loving and kind family. I have talked to many au pairs here in Italy and have heard some horror stories about their families. So needless to say, thank you to my spirits, guides, and the Big Man for always looking out for me!

 

Fun facts of the day: (Please note the following are just general observations I have gathered about the culture of Italy and how different it can be from the U.S., plus I thought most of you would enjoying knowing some of these)

~Most Italians are very short, even guys. I tower over most Italian men and women by the long run. I have probably only seen 2 Italians over 6′ tall. Interesting eh???

~Italians love the sun and the sun loves them! I know this because I am the whitest one here and the sun and I do not have these mutual feelings towards each other.

~I thought bringing a one piece swimsuit to Italy would be very considerate as I would be around kids all day. WRONG, pretty much everyone wears a swimsuit 2 sizes too small and all of the guys wear speedos. I was not prepared for this one! YIKES

~Pasta is served as a starter course here, not a main meal as it is in The States. You then order a main course as well and don’t forget about dessert! WARNING: This does not include the gelato you will inevitably consume after all of this.

~I cannot stress enough how crazy Italian drivers are! Ultimately, I think this is a European thing because each city I have been to just blows my mind. I have yet to see a car accident or people being pulled over. We need to catch up America, what are we thinking?! There is no such thing as a speed limit or anything of the sort and if there is I have yet to see it being taken into account!

~Not all Italians know English, especially in Genova. There is quite the language barrier for me here in Italy. I find myself speaking or responding in French quite often, I guess out of habit? I will admit this does make things a bit more difficult and a lot less fun when making friends is not so easy but it’s all about the beauty of the culture right!? 🙂

~Some of you may remember me posting about this in Paris. In Italy Coca Cola is served with a lemon. I finally found out the reason for this the other night when I was talking to my family about it. The acidity in the lemon helps with digestion, weird huh!?

For right now that is all I can think of! Will add more later. I will also post about my trip to Rome in a couple of days along with pictures. I am almost to Pisa so I better go! Definitely enjoying the view ❤

Train to Pisa

 

Good news!! I return home next week, about halfway through my time here. Why? Well as I have thoroughly enjoyed my time here thus far I am excited to get back home and spend some time relaxing. Life has been crazy the past few months, especially spending so much time working towards getting my degree and then graduating. So needless to say I am very sad to be leaving such a wonderful family and beautiful country but I must take care of myself and right now what I am needing is some quality me time and a bit of a break.

 

 

Love to you all!! Will post again real soon

Kels

Up, up and AWAY!

As my trip to Italy approaches at top speed, no but seriously where has time gone, I am overwhelmed with emotions. These past few weeks, months and even years flash before me as I begin final preparations to finishing up this “book” in my life. Forget the chapters, I am way past that! Where to next?! Well Italy, that’s where! My last class of my college career is this Thursday and then I am free at last! A mere 2 days later I am off on my 2 month adventure to Europe!

A few topics that have came up over the past couple weeks have been “Are you excited?” and “What are you going to do now?.” Surprisingly enough those are actually pretty hard questions to answer. The whole excitement part has been briefly overwhelmed with anxiety with all of the classes I had to finish and then now last minute preparations. BUT there is a new dawn creeping up! Graduation is a wonderful achievement but it is actually quite funny how much pressure we put on ourselves to figure out the next big thing in our lives. I guess that is why I am thoroughly happy I am getting a bit of a break in order to let the universe work its magic! Yes I am totally that person who believes in setting intentions in life and putting out good vibes so the best opportunities are given the chance to present themselves. Imagine this, you have a plan for many aspects of your life and it just so happens that at every given chance things go “wrong” or it “doesn’t work out”, bummer. To me that is the universe saying “HOLD UP” this is what you may think you want in life but let’s be honest, is it really your true path? Touchy subject I know but beyond all of the pressures of society and life in itself give yourself a chance to LIVE. LOVE. WANDER.

Currently I am taking a break from hand writing my Thank You’s from graduation. I am only about 10 in and my hand is cramping out of style, ha! I can definitely type 60+ words per minute but 5 words in handwriting and I can barely comprehend my own writing… (I hope luck doesn’t look too much like *uck) Yes I said it, don’t be so crude you have to admit it was funny! 🙂

Last week I spent some time with friends at impromptu lunches or dinners. In my free time I have been reading Fifty Shades of Grey for the 6th time, maybe? lol! Shoutout to E.L. James.

Oh I’m sorry, you lost me at Christian Grey… Where were we??

Ah yes! A big shoutout to all of the support!! Looking to make this whole blog thing a pretty big deal ❤

Much love to all!

Will update with more soon

Kels

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Greetings!

Well, well, well.. It has been quite some time! **NOTE*** I have purchased this blog URL so for those of you who may have the Semester in Parisdise saved you may need to update to the new one I bought, livelovewander.me (this one).

 

These past few months, who am I kidding, these past few years have been quite busy as I neared the end of my Business Management degree. Friends, it’s official, I am a 2015 graduate wahoo!!! These past few weeks have been intense. I made preparations for a wonderful graduation party on the day of graduation and ended up surrounded by all of my family, friends and loved ones. It has been a long 6 years of schooling for me and I am beyond happy to be DONE!! Thank you to everyone who came and made graduation so special, thank you for all of the support! I am a little behind on the graduation “Thank You’s” but I promise I will have those out within the next week. For those of you who may not be connected with me on Facebook here are some pictures from my special day!

IMG_3143 Before I walked, excited and nervous!

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After I walked, who’s ready to party!?

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Party DECOR! My theme was travel.. of course 🙂

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Graduation invitations I made!

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Last minute cap decorating ❤

Family and Friends ❤

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The party doesn’t stop there. I was able to walk in May with the notion I still had 2 summer classes to finish up SO in other words I have been in school since graduation day :/. I finished a 2 week class at the end of May and began my capstone class, Strategic Management the beginning of June. Good news, I am halfway done with that class. Bad news, it’s a level 600 class combined in 4 weeks so I’ve been lacking sleep, energy, quiet time and all of the above the past few weeks. BUT for those of you who may not know, I am heading off to Italy for the summer in 2 short weeks!! HAPPY GRADUATION TO ME! I am going to live in the beautiful port/sea side town of Genoa for 6 weeks as an au pair (nanny). After about 6 weeks of au pairing I will then backpack Europe for 2 weeks! I just purchased my Eurail train ticket, special thanks to Rick Steves, and am beyond excited for my next adventure.

Check back for more! I will be updating again soon,

Ciao

Kelsey